My Life

I can't change the world, but I can change the world around me.

It took me a long time to figure out who I am.I went to this camp called Camp LEAD the other week for 3 days and that really changed my view on a lot of things.I feel like I am a better person because I have been soul searching.

I have eliminated a lot of my bad habits out of my life.For instance I do not do any kind of drug anymore.I am living a clean sober life and I wouldn't change it at all.I love being sober and being in control of my thoughts.I just found that getting high is just not cool enough for me anymore.I love my brain, and being able to use it IS my high.

My Friends,

I have a variety of friends.I have friends who could care less having my presence around. I have friends who I have lost but still talk to occasionally.

I have a best friend who knows everything about me. And that would never betray me or leave me.

I have a good friend who is there when I need it.And is going to be with me the rest of my life.

And for those people who Don't like me.Or have a problem with me somehow.

Sucks for you! :)

Really?

Is it that hard to find some one who is right for me?

It's getting so frustrating, that i am the point where i am going to give up.

Some one, show me that being alone is optional. :(

"Black" -_-

All my life i have dealt with one problem that doens't seem to go away. I am "Black".
My skin color is Dark brown, But now people refer to me as "black" because it is easier to say than dark brown.Or maybe it is just because every one is color blind and they cant see dark colors so they automatically see black. I don't know.

There are a lot of stereotypes that come along with me being born this way.
1)My family is on wel-fare.
2)I listen to rap
3)I am in a gang
4)I have been to jail
and many many more........

My point is that I break every stereotype that is put on a "black" person. I listen to everything BUT rap.
My family is not on wel- fare.
I have never been in a gang in my life.
And I have never went to jail nor do i do thing that would put me in the situation of going to jail.

Oh, and also my name is Jakee. Pronounced as (Jaw-keey).
Some people might even say that my name is such a "black" name.

Just because my mother has more creativity in naming the child she gave life to then others doesn't mean that my name is a black name.It only means that my mother had too much imagination to name a human in which she created, a name that has already been taken. My name is a made up name just like every name on this earth. So get over it.

Some people say that I am white washed.For the last time, I am NOT white washed. If any one wants to actually go down that low and call me white washed that only shows that you are stuck in your stereotype based world. People base the world on whats around them.And that is sad.

Because I base people on who i know.Not what i hear or see.And even then i don't judge people until I get to know them.

Anyway, that's all I had to say.

Life

For a long time, it seemed as if i were falling down a hill. Unable to climb my way back up or even stop myself from falling further.

I have my close friends in which i can trust with my life.

I have a mother who doesn't care. And a father who is wants to care, but honestly could care less.

I have a grandma who loves who she wants me to be but hates what I am.

I have had my first relationship. which was not at all what i wanted it to be.

I have had really good friends, and for some reason I screw it up or their true side comes out and i see that the person they are isn't what i thought it was.

I have HAD an addiction that basically had MY life in "IT'S" hands.

I have had F's throughout my whole elementary/middle school life.

I have always been discriminated against on multiple accounts.

I have had high hopes for something and watch it die within plain sight.

I have watched my own mother, the only person that is never supposed to stop loving you, abandon me in front of my eyes.

I have dealt with Death more than once.

I live in a house where every person,thing,face, and voice torture me.

I have purposely made others suffer.

But yet I have been given a gift. I have been given the only thing that can keep me going throughout ALL of my battles.I own something which has the potential to make or break me.I posses soemthing that can never go away till the time comes for me to let it go .

I have Life.

And everything in a Life is as easy as just doing it.

No questions asked.

And everything will work out according to plan.

-Jakee

Love.

Love. Many people think they have it. Many people know that they have it. Love is something you don't doubt. Love is a feeling that you know when you feel it. Love is actually useless as a word because it is too strong of a emotion. I think i have it but it may be lost or hard to find. But until that day i will be waiting for the right person to complete me. It's never a matter of thinking that you do not have a person to love you. It's only a matter of when and where you will find this person. And when you do you will know. As for me, i don't know if i have found it yet. But i have hope that i will find ti soon because every person on this earth is destined to find their significant other. All you have to do is let love in.

-Jakee

Die faster?.. or... Die slower?

Many people in America and all across the world smoke cigarettes.(A miniature tube filled with chemical soaked tobacco that you burn at the tip and inhale the contents of the chemical reaction)Many people just try it once and automatically they are hooked.Once you start you cant stop unless YOU WANT TO.Cigarettes will take over your life and then before you know it the inevitable will happen and then it will be too late.For those people who are reading this and thinking that I am dumb for even trying to stop you from smoking.Your wrong.The whole point in informing people not to smoke is to make them realize the truth.Instead of telling them not to do it.The real question here is,Do you want to die quicker? or Do you want to die slower?




Every person you ask that has been smoking for a time period of 30 years or even 20 years will probably tell you that they wish they would have stopped when they were starting out and they thought they were on top of the world.Some peopel cant even stop because if they do they will get physically sick.It is much better to stop smoking when you only get anxiety and it goes away then want to stop and cant even stop if you tried.




Let me ask you this..Would you take a drug for the first time if you knew that it was highly addictive and that once you start depending on it you will not be able to stop.?Even if you knew that it killed or even permanently disabled those who got too carried away?You would probably say no.And if your thinking that you wont get carried away..Go ask any smoker and tell them to throw away their pack right now and see what they say and you will get your answer.





And what makes it even worse it that cigarette companies dont even put on their products what
WILL happen to you when you use thier products.They don't tell you how it will when you inhale the toxic smoke or what it does after you are a long time user.All it says is the Cigarettes product name and where it was manufactured.Every product that is sold in a store has a label on it that clearly explains what is in it and the general warnings about it.Cigarettes do NOT.The producers of cigarettes do not care about what happens to you at all.All they care about is the money.And the sad part about it is that once you have something dramatic happen to you like having a lung removed or getting a whole in your throat is that you will feel so hopeless that you will most likely just keep smoking.





And if there are any existing smoker right now reading this...Just think about this..Do you want to die slower or quicker?..Smoking cigarettes will only make you die quicker.And in this time,Every second of life is precious,And every minute holds a new opportunity that you never thought existed.